I know I've been emotional at home, because I just don't like the way my uncles judge me and I hate this house to be noisy every damn day. I enjoy silence at home, which I nearly never have. Whenever my family members speak, they annoy me. Ever since I'm always working on stuffs or reading books, I detest noise, I want a quiet place but I just never have it, not when I'm in this house.
I've slept in many of my friends' home, I found it more comfortable to stay in somewhere else during the weekend; honestly, I'd do it every day if I could. My family doesn't support it, I guess. But what can they do about it? I just step out the door and tell them, "I'm not coming back home tonight." They must be worried, but somehow I've neglected their feelings, and I still do. I've already started to hate my 2 uncles, and my uncle's girlfriend; I only treat my grandma, my mum and my dad as my family.
And today I spent my day with my mum, which I hadn't done for a long while, I was always out. I enjoyed it so much, I felt the same happiness again. She brought my problem up, and we talked about it, she thought my attitude was horrible but to me, I was just trying to avoid arguments. She said I couldn't hide my emotion or facial expressions, obviously I was on my bad mood at home every day. I told her I was always stressed out due to my work, there was never silence which I wanted to have so badly.
I enjoyed our conversation, hope she felt the same. Maybe I should hide my emotion more, at least not showing it to the noisy people, HA!
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